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I feel sad && I reach for my pills.
not the kind you want, but the kind you need.
they are the sure product of lacking will.
I do not take these by choice, by any means.

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yellow && green wash down my throat by water.
so many thoughts running thru my mind.
will this anxiety ever be slaughtered?
anxiety I do not wish to harm you, but will you be so kind?

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motivation is the driving force behind this experiment.
if I fail at this, what will it mean?
&& if I win, I’ll need to know where it went.
I wont stand for it creeping back up on me.

NTD.