I'm back :)

hellllllllllllllllllllllllllllo, friends.
I know its almost been 3weeks but I just got my resources back!


so since my last blog entry.. I got out of the hospital, turned 21, went to see +Taylor Swift in concert, && am having more panic attacks lately. YAY

when I got out of the hospital, I was doing just fine health-wise. up until I left for my concert, that is. I wasnt really feeling that much run-down already, but the junk I was coughing up was a color that I had never seen come out of me before. so it worried me && I called my dr the morning we were leaving for tacoma. he put me on cipro + minocycline. I kind of really suck at taking them at home, but I try really hard! they also drop my bloodsugar (causing some anxiety) soo that sucks.... BIGTIME.

..soo for my bday my mama surprised me w a family dinner at red robin, followed by a spontaneous 21 run w my siblings..

the concert was UHmazing!! I went w my seester && we drove straight there, to the dome. we had to get dressed in the car right before we stood in line (for 2.5hrs) && basically the whole concert I was fighting off a panic attack. but it was soo worth it! I got a t-shirt && was able to sneak in food&&drink ;)
we stayed at our grandmas house afterwards && left for home the next morning. it was INSANE to be in the same place as her, dudes! if anyone would like to, y'all should def check out the #redtour hashtag on instagram -- worth it :)

the openers were Casey James && Ed Sheeran. && I've never been to a concert where every single song (even from the openers) were good && worth the $$ I paid for to see the show. it was crazy good. oh haha && beforehand when we were waiting in line outside of the dome, there was this guy who was preaching about jesus. he even thru some things about tswift into the mix. it was totes annoyballz.

now back to the anxiety attacks.... I had such a bad one lastnight that my boyfs sister had to call for an ambulance for me :( the emt's ended up being dicks && were basically telling me that there was nothing that they could do for me && that there was nothing that I could do for myself too. oh && they even had the oddasity to say that they didnt have the "luxury" of staying here all night. so I sent them away && michael came home from work && I ended up calming right down. I even almost started back up a couple of hrs later, but didnt result into anything major. I also spent about 4hrs of today trying to calm myself down....



Music Recommendations:

• Wrecking Ball - Miley Cyrus
• Royals - Lorde  
  
  
  
  

  
  

  
  

  
  

  
  

  
  

  good wishes. good vibes. good thoughts.

  xx

tgif!

bollocks.. I hate when I forget to post :(

I went to the beach yesterday for the first time this year w my sister&&niece. it was so much fun! but I got a tad burnt.. oh wellll, let the tanning begin ;)

so in my last post I said that I felt like it was borderline hospital time, but I have really bounced back since then. I was actually wheezing then, which I've barely ever done. so I've added hts&&cayston to the mix && finally got my pulmozyme. so I'm doing cayston 3x a day, hts 2x a day, vest 2x a day && pulmozyme at night.. cant even recall the last time I had this many treatments in 1day (at home, that is)!
I'm actually doing my morning treatment right meow, good reminder ;)

I'm trying to stay out of the hospital til July, which is actually my 3month mark anyways, but the main reason why I'm working so hard is because at the end of August (along w my 21st) is the +Taylor Swift concert w my sister - RED TOUR holla! so so excited :)

ohk so my walk for Great Strides was on June 1st && I was so bummed because I really wanted to do the walk this year. I've never done it, as to stay away from other CF'rs, but online all I see is fellow cysters&&fibros able to do the walk w masks && colorful bracelets letting everyone know they have CF && to stay away from other CF'rs.. so I have no clue why no one has said whether I can or cant. so I was just gonna do it anyways, then I forgot about it :( I mainly forgot because it was also my 1yr anniversary w my boyfriend, Michael. we havent gotten to celebrate yet, but still..
anyways, this was my favorite picture from the event →

we also got a sign w my name on it because one of my donors donated $500! it was so awesome :)

alright so +Demi Lovato is one of my favorite artists. her voice is the most powerful&&talented of any other disney starlet, without a doubt.
 && if you havent already, check out her new album DEMI. its UHmazing!

my favorites are:

• Heart Attack
• Something That We're Not
• Nightingale
• Really Dont Care
• Without the Love

good thoughts. good wishes. good vibes. && so it is.
xx