well I'm on my 3rd week straight of IV antibiotics && I'm not gonna sugar-coat this.. IT SUCKS. I had an appt w my CF dr last monday && the good news was that I gained weight (120lbs). bad news? he tacked on an extra week of IVs. the reason being: my breathing tests were basically the same as when I first got admitted, which is obviously not good, && that was after being on IVs for 2weeks like normal! I kind of expected it because I had missed a couple doses once I took it all home.. the schedule was way too early for me so I would sleep thru my alarms. I can literally sleep thru most anything. anyways, my whole schedule got really messed up && kept getting pushed back n back && now they're fine because they're more catered to my kind of sleep-schedule. this monday shall be the 3week mark && I'm reallllllly hoping to finally be done! showers are one of the hardest parts about being hooked up.. but not the hardest. the hardest is occasionally missing holidays && events (aka my nephews 1st birthday party today). I was so crushed that I broke down crying over my CF. I've never not hated my CF, but I absolutely loath it when it comes to things like this. I know that he's only a baben && wont even remember this party, but still.. it matters to me! && I was really looking forward to seeing all of my family too. I havent been able to see them lately && miss them a lot..
never had my port accessed for this long before soo its especially itchy && annoying right meow. I just wanna pull it out myself! but wont. doesnt help that my arms are extremely itchy all. the. time. && look like they have an allergic reaction going on, which they dont. its just that it started out as a couple little scratches from my kitty &&they got so itchy that I accidentally scratched em open whilst in the process of curing the itch && now its a never-ending cycle :(
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I have my first set of appts, towards getting listed, this week! 3 CTscans are set-up for the 24th && the dreaded pap-smear on the 25th. weee.
SO I initially started this blog entry around 10pm-ish saturday night && it is now 5am sunday morning. got distracted w dinner, baked cupcakes, && spent some quality time w the boyf. he works soo much that we hardly get to see eachother really. makes me sad.. but I know he works so hard to support us. && for that, I am grateful! well I can start to feel my sleep-aid kicking in finally so I will bid thee adieu.
good wishes. good vibes. good thoughts. && so it is.