(backstory: its 5am & I havent gone to sleep yet -- so for me its still Dec ❅ 9th)
|( high-flow nose cannula )|
so up until today, I've basically been a zombie. existing, responding, & functioning but just emotionless. I havent been wanting visitors. cuz I've just been sitting here like duhhhhhhhhhhhhh. no cares. no thoughts. no nothing. I was just trying to chalk it up to my high bloodsugars. so I'm diabetic, right? & since I'm on steroid bursts & there's also dextrose (sugar) in my antibiotics, my bloodsugars have literally been 200s -- 300s -- 400s the ENTIRE time that I've been here.. which is like a week & a half. my eyesight is soo wonky, I cant see anything in the distance. so I have to realllly squint. but up close? things are clear! once again, I'm trying to just believe that its due to said high bloodsugars. idk.
so I know its been awhile since I blogged last, but I was inspired by my brother to blog it all out :) so yeah!
good wishes. good vibes. good thoughts. & so it is.